I’m at the end of my first week back at work. It has been so great to catch up with co-workers and to rejoin the workforce downtown. That being said, I miss my girl like crazy during the day. I’m lucky/glad that she has enjoyed daycare. She comes home exhausted from playing, but is still her happy, smiley self. It gives me peace of mind to know she’s having fun all day. It still doesn’t make me miss her any less.
I guess I didn’t expect to feel so strongly pulled in both directions. On one hand, I feel compelled to be with her more. I feel like I’m missing HUGE chunks of her day. These babies change so fast and I want to experience each part/ stage with her. I know I get to see her in the evening and on weekends, but that somehow still feels less than ideal. Then, on the other hand, I do enjoy working and feeling like I’m using my brain for other things besides deciding if I should do a load of laundry before or after washing the bottles.
I guess what I’m trying to convey is that this is so hard and I don’t know if there is an easy answer right now. Maybe working part-time some day? I don’t know if that’s the solution either. All I (we) can do is take it one day at a time. I’m thinking extra hard about this today because Esther went to daycare not feeling the best today. She’s experiencing her first cold. Again, she seems fine and it’s probably been harder on me than it is for her. She’s congested and very “snotty” but still smiling through it. What a trooper! If this is any indication of how she’s gonna handle sickness than I am so not worried. She’s been a champ. I ❤ her so.
Maybe I can just hire her as my assistant and she can hang out in my office all day!!?? No? Child labor laws? Shoot.