Posts Tagged ‘daycare’

I’m at the end of my first week back at work. It has been so great to catch up with co-workers and to rejoin the workforce downtown. That being said, I miss my girl like crazy during the day. I’m lucky/glad that she has enjoyed daycare. She comes home exhausted from playing, but is still her happy, smiley self. It gives me peace of mind to know she’s having fun all day. It still doesn’t make me miss her any less.

I guess I didn’t expect to feel so strongly pulled in both directions. On one hand, I feel compelled to be with her more. I feel like I’m missing HUGE chunks of her day. These babies change so fast and I want to experience each part/ stage with her. I know I get to see her in the evening and on weekends, but that somehow still feels less than ideal. Then, on the other hand, I do enjoy working and feeling like I’m using my brain for other things besides deciding if I should do a load of laundry before or after washing the bottles.

I guess what I’m trying to convey is that this is so hard and I don’t know if there is an easy answer right now.  Maybe working part-time some day? I don’t know if that’s the solution either. All I (we) can do is take it one day at a time. I’m thinking extra hard about this today because Esther went to daycare not feeling the best today. She’s experiencing her first cold. Again, she  seems fine and it’s probably been harder on me than it is for her. She’s congested and very “snotty” but still smiling through it. What a trooper! If this is any indication of how she’s gonna handle sickness than I am so not worried. She’s been a champ. I ❤ her so.

Maybe I can just hire her as my assistant and she can hang out in my office all day!!?? No? Child labor laws? Shoot.

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I’m sitting here writing this post and listening to Esther “talk” to me. She plays this call and response game with us. It’s one of my most favorite things and I will miss this time during the day with her. I’m returning to work next Monday and It’s very bittersweet. I’ve enjoyed these months with her, but I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t excited to get back to a routine again that includes working. I miss it. I’m not worried about her. I think she’ll love daycare. She’s becoming more aware of her surrounding and she craves stimulation.  She’ll be able to play with the other kids (as much as she can “play” at this age) and watch them move around her. She’ll be socialized and that’s so important to us.

I now know that all mom’s work! No matter if she’s staying at home or working outside the home. Staying home is not a vacation! There are always bottles to we washed, baby laundry to wash and fold or a baby who needs attention.

This is my last week home with her and I have to keep reminding myself that I’ll still get to spend lots of time with her in the evening and weekends. For some reason it feels like she’s going away to summer camp  or something and I won’t see her for months. I have all of these things I want to do with her this week and I’ve been getting extra snuggles in.

I’m continuing to focus on BALANCE. Figuring out how to be mom, wife, friend, co-worker, sister…and the list goes on. Something tells me this will be ongoing, but that’s ok. I’m in a much better place than I was a few weeks ago and it feels good.

It may be quiet around here again for a while as we adjust to me working outside the home. I will try my best to keep you all informed about what’s going on with Lady E.


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