I’m sitting here writing this post and listening to Esther “talk” to me. She plays this call and response game with us. It’s one of my most favorite things and I will miss this time during the day with her. I’m returning to work next Monday and It’s very bittersweet. I’ve enjoyed these months with her, but I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t excited to get back to a routine again that includes working. I miss it. I’m not worried about her. I think she’ll love daycare. She’s becoming more aware of her surrounding and she craves stimulation. She’ll be able to play with the other kids (as much as she can “play” at this age) and watch them move around her. She’ll be socialized and that’s so important to us.
I now know that all mom’s work! No matter if she’s staying at home or working outside the home. Staying home is not a vacation! There are always bottles to we washed, baby laundry to wash and fold or a baby who needs attention.
This is my last week home with her and I have to keep reminding myself that I’ll still get to spend lots of time with her in the evening and weekends. For some reason it feels like she’s going away to summer camp or something and I won’t see her for months. I have all of these things I want to do with her this week and I’ve been getting extra snuggles in.
I’m continuing to focus on BALANCE. Figuring out how to be mom, wife, friend, co-worker, sister…and the list goes on. Something tells me this will be ongoing, but that’s ok. I’m in a much better place than I was a few weeks ago and it feels good.
It may be quiet around here again for a while as we adjust to me working outside the home. I will try my best to keep you all informed about what’s going on with Lady E.