Edited to Add: I actually wrote this post yesterday and just now got the chance to post it. So, yep- welcome to parenthood.
Whew! First… Hey (:
For those of you who don’t know, our little angel arrived on Friday morning kicking and screaming (although you wouldn’t know it from this serene face, would you?). I’ll tell ya all about that later, but wanted to update the site.
Esther Irene Andrews
By the way- no castor oil needed. She started giving me contractions on her own at around 9 pm on Thursday eve.
I was feeling a bit disconnected from the AWESOME community that was here to support us at each step of this long and often times- terrifying journey. It’s a love and support that I’ve never felt and I am confident that it was because of your prayers that we made it almost to the end of a 40 week pregnancy.
(So if that’s so true, Tanisha, how come you are being a huge meanie and hogging her all to yourself?)
I also wanted to come here to explain why we kept people away at the hospital and wanted to wait until we were settled at home for visitors. About a week before pregnancy I started to really process what giving birth would feel like and how I (and Jim) would feel upon first meeting our daughter. I knew that I wanted our little family to have, at the very least, a few hours to just get to know her- uninterrupted. Secondly, I knew breast feeding would probably take us some time to get down and I don’t know about you, but I’m not comfortable whipping my breasts out in front of even my closest of friends. Breast feeding is not like bottle feeding. You literally have to be engaged in it around the clock. I don’t even know why I even bother to wear a shirt. Seriously, ask Jim, for the past 3 days I look like I could be a double for one of the mommas you might see in National Geographic. I’m thankful that I fought for this privacy because we’ve needed it. Breast-feeding has indeed been a challenge for Esther and I. I know we’ll get it, but it hasn’t been an easy road (again, I’ll talk more about it later). This difficulty has contributed to Esther developing a pretty bad case of jaundice. They almost didn’t let us come home today. She just barely made the cut off. They delivered a “billibed” to our home and we were told she MUST stay on the bed whenever she’s not being nursed or changed. It breaks my heart, literally, as I could hold her all day long. Adittionaly, if you’ve had a baby recently you’ll know this. They jam pack all they can into the short hospital stay these days. Tests, shots, doctor visits, photos, nurses checks and questions.
Of course we want you all to meet our daughter. She’s the best! I’m not just saying that because I’m her momma. We’re just gonna need more time to get our groove down. Trust me, it will be more fun to visit her anyway when you can actually hold her and really give her a good once over. You couldn’t do that now-
We do thank you for all of the offers of visits and food and just overall a showering of love and support. WE DO APPRECIATED. And maybe I’m only speaking for myself, but I feel like a huge meanie and I wanted you to know why we’re cocooning for a bit. We promise to let you know when you can crowd our door and enjoy this little lady as much as we are. Right now, I’m being an aggresive momma bear and making she medically in a good spot.
We’re seeing the pediatrician tomorrow to make sure he jaundice is getting better, as well as a lactation consulatant. I’m still committed to breast feeding and I’m determined (now more than ever) to make it work. I’m currently taking a quick, relaxing tea break willing my milk to come in (: TMI? See?? told ya!
A special shout out to the ReyesLewis family for watching Sparky (and keeping him a bonus day) so we could deliver this girl and get settled a bit before Jim has to figure out how to juggle being a parent of 2 and a new MBA student.
Jim, Tanisha and Esther.
11 Replies to “Coming Up for Air (but only for a quick second)”
It’s so good to hear that you’re hunkering down to give her and you guys the time your little family needs to take it all in. These are some of the most precious and intense moments you will ever have in your life. There is nothing “mean” about savoring them for yourselves for a little bit. You are doing what is best for her, right out of the gate, and so, unsurprisingly, it’s clear that you are already incredible parents. Also, breastfeeding … hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life, other than labor/delivery. There is no way to prepare for it and your commitment will pay off, whether that’s success and all of your nursing dreams coming true, or whatever other place you land on the continuum. No right or wrong, only what’s best for you and baby E. Over the moon with joy and relief for you. Now “let her sleep, for when she wakes, she will move mountains.” xoxoxoxo
I see nothing wrong with this! You are loved. Remember that.
I would be the same way! It’s a special time for your new little family and you take all the time you need and want! I can’t meet the little one!
I meant… I can’t WAIT to meet the little one!
Ha! I ❤ you! That was almost as funny as you falling down in Vegas.
Tanisha Andrews Sent from my iPhone
I was a jaundice baby too =) so Ester and I are already connected!
I am very happy all went well, I knew it would. I’m glad you and Jim were wise enough to take time and bond as a family. (No judgement) but I never understood people who have 5,000 visitors at the hospital =/
Please let me know if you need anything, I am wishing you and Jim a little bit of rest during this exciting time in life!
I’m soooooo excited for you both!
call me as soon as Ester is ready to meet people =)
I understand and support your decision to care for Esther right now without people gathered around. You’re such great parents! Love you!
You are truly blessed, I am very happy for you! Welcome to motherhood, it greatest love you will ever know! God bless you and your husband!
I applaud you for doing what feels right to your family, even if it doesn’t feel MN nice. I remember how hard those first few days are and how it takes all of your energy just to get the basics done. Just keep trusting your instincts and putting your family’s needs first and foremost. Thinking of you right now – let me know if you need anything from me.
The Woodsons are so excited for the three of you! We’re on the road tomorrow but by the time we get back we’ll be ready to jump into the line to meet the newest member of the Andrews family. Way to go!
Love and blessings!
Bill and Frances
Felicidades, Tanisha and Jim! I love the name you picked. Can’t wait to meet her!!!