Hiya everyone! Me here.
We had our 39 week appointment today. I am in a much better state of mind now than I was earlier today. I’ve been experiencing a wave of anxiety in regards to labor/delivery and making sure baby is fine these last few weeks. I’m not sure where it came from, just woke up in a panic one day and haven’t been able to shake it. The doctor says it’s normal and that most women feel that way at this point. That’s reassuring. I’ve been trying to meditate on relaxing and letting go. I know that this entire process is not something that I can control, although it doesn’t stop me from trying. Isn’t insanity doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results? Yeah- seems maybe I need a little more time to learn that lesson, right? (:
In other news, baby is doing fine. She is still moving around in there head down and she seems nice and cozy. I fear she never wants to come out . A few days ago I had convinced myself that she was never going to come. Jim just laughed at me. Next time, he’ll be the one to carry our child. I’m sure medical science will have figured out a way to make that happen by the time we have babes #2. The doctor checked my cervix this time (ouch!!!!!!!!!!!!) and it’s soft and I’m dilated to 1 cm . What does that mean? Absolutely nothing (: I could go into labor 30 minutes from now or 2 weeks from now. The good news is, is that my cervix is soft and progress has been made. Also, she said that if I wanted, I could drink castor oil. That’s probably because she could see the look of tiredness and desperation on my face. Well, and that fact that I said “This needs to happen soon!” I’m back at work now and while I’m not digging ditches, I’m usually exhausted by noon each day. In addition I have a TON of pelvic pain and pressure. I’m not sure if I’ve mentioned this on the blog before, but our doctor was a doctor in India before moving to the states to practice medicine. She’s done her residency twice and knows her stuff. She said that in India that is how they’d “induce” women. It’s worth a shot, no? Well, I’m going to try it! What can it hurt ? She told me to be patient though and that when the baby is ready she’ll send a signal to my brain to begin labor. I also asked her how much she thinks this little girl weighs at this point. She estimates about 7 lbs. So, time will tell. We also talked about what happens if she doesn’t come on her due date. If she’s not here Monday the 6th, we’ll come in on Sunday the 12 for induction so she’ll be born that Monday.
So I can do it. I know that at the very most we have less than 3 weeks before we meet our baby girl.
Hope you all are well. Thanks for reading as always.