Six years ago today I was eating a Popsicle waiting for my doctor to arrive to catch you when I pushed you into this world. I assumed from that day on that I'd be the one pushing you. Pushing you to be your best. Pushing you forward- closer to who you're meant to be. What …
My Baby is 3!! (but also, always, my baby)
Oh my sweetest Fiona. Today you are 3 and my heart feels so full. There's a bitter-sweetness to watching your baby grow up. As your baby grows, a parent tries to savor all of the firsts and the lasts...the last first steps, the last bottle, the last time you bend over to place your baby …
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Dear Esther. Happy 04!
On days when I wanted to pull the covers over my head and ignore the day, the knowledge that you needed me got me outta my head and off my ass to get up and participate in life. You help me realize that my actions, matter. Not only that, you motivate and encourage me to continuously learn and grow because if I am to teach you “all of the things” then I better learn “all of the things.”
Dear Fiona. Happy 1 year Bugga.
Oh my sweet Fiona. Here I am posting your Happy Birthday post almost 2 weeks later. Yes, I do have second child syndrome, but I don't love you any less. I actually think you're getting a better deal. You're getting the lax mom. I don't freak out (too much) when you spike a temp. When …
Dear Esther. Happy Birthday.
Esther, I am sitting here on the eve of your 3rd birthday and I am overwhelmed in the best way. This time 3 years ago I was on bed rest anxiously awaiting your arrival. After months of barely breathing, or sneezing or lifting anything heavier than a toothbrush….afraid that trying too hard at anything …
5 Months!
Dear Esther, Where have these 5 months gone? It seems like only yesterday you were this little ball of newborn flesh and hair that we carried home from the hospital. We were overwhelmed by both anxiety and joy. We were parents and you were finally here. Those next few weeks are mostly a blur as I danced …
Dear Esther
Dear Esther: Thank you for choosing us to be your parents. I'm honored to be one of your guides to take care of and nourish your little spirit. Sometimes my love for you overwhelms me and I can't imagine what I was doing before you came to us. I miss you even when just leaving …